Barbara Joe

by Bradley Voorhees

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One of my favorite albums of mine to date

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released July 12, 2010

All songs written by Bradley Voorhees.
Except,
track 6; Lyrics & melody by Martha Lillard, Music Written by Bradley Voorhees.
Track 7 Lyrics co-written with BASE, Music Written by Bradley Voorhees.

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Track Name: Crumbling
Verse 1:
I don’t know where to go anymore
I’ve been down this road many times before
My hearts in pain my head is sore
Its become such work for me to even go to the store
It’s times like these where I just want to soar
Miles and miles away need something new to explore
My my my my how my life has become a bore
Half the time I just wanna head for the door

Hook:
brighter life
easier days
I need better times
Happier ways

Chorus:
To keep me from crumbling
It’s my newest discovery
Look what’s gotten into me
I try to stand but I’m fumbling
And that causes mumbling
Wish I’d win the lottery
But I guess I’d have to play
Oh well to hell with everything
Where the hells my stability
This shit is aggravating
So I’m busy wondering
When my life stopped mattering
But it’s just too embarrassing
So don’t gimme your flattery
because it feels like battering
I don’t get much of anything

Verse 2:
Where the hell can I get the manual
On how to patch up a shattered soul
One things for sure I miss being whole
I’m in so much pain yo you just don’t know
It’s all in my head true but that’s uncomfortable
because that’s where I am my head is my home
My mind races all outta wack all out of control
I feel like I’m stuck here or like I’m froze

Hook:
brighter life
easier days
I need better times
Happier ways

Chorus:
To keep me from crumbling
It’s my newest discovery
Look what’s gotten into me
I try to stand but I’m fumbling
And that causes mumbling
Wish I’d win the lottery
But I guess I’d have to play
Oh well to hell with everything
Where the hells my stability
This shit is aggravating
So I’m busy wondering
When my life stopped mattering
But it’s just too embarrassing
So don’t gimme your flattery
because it feels like battering
I don’t get much of anything

Bridge:
We stick by the ones we love
When times are tough
We don’t run we have fun
But I guess you have to want the one
That you’ve been sharing life with all along
I used to think I was strong
But now I’m coming undone

Chorus:
To keep me from crumbling
It’s my newest discovery
Look what’s gotten into me
I try to stand but I’m fumbling
And that causes mumbling
Wish I’d win the lottery
But I guess I’d have to play
Oh well to hell with everything
Where the hells my stability
This shit is aggravating
So I’m busy wondering
When my life stopped mattering
But it’s just too embarrassing
So don’t gimme your flattery
because it feels like battering
I don’t get much of anything
Track Name: Everyone Knows
Verse 1:
In the meanwhile
Something was happening
I gave you power over my destiny
I can’t see how
I let you control things
And walk all over things
That meant so much to me
It’s what you’re about
And its so sickening
You don’t deserve a name
Walk away tail between your legs
Live the rest of your day
In a vulnerable shame
You’re a waste

Hook 1:
You came into my life
I could tell something just wasn’t right
Couldn’t place it though I tried
For 4 fucking years of my life

Chorus:
You know it you got it you know you were a waste of time
I know it I wasted four god damned years of me and my daughters lives
They see it they know that I’m stupid for giving your dumb ass a try
Everyone knows I had temporarily lost my mind

Verse 2:
It’s about time I take responsibility
For not having protected my family from you
But it’s such a crime
The shit I let you do I was such a fool don’t know why
Pretending to believe all of your lies
Meanwhile my daughter would cry all the time
Should be punished more than I already am
Fess up and be a man and not fight


Hook 2:
I should do jail time
For letting you hit me more than twice
I should be crucified
For not calling you out on your fines

Chorus:
You know it you got it you know you were a waste of time
I know it I wasted four god damned years of me and my daughters lives
They see it they know that I’m stupid for giving your dumb ass a try
Everyone knows I had temporarily lost my mind

Bridge:
I wasn’t ever deserving of the ways in which you treated me
And somewhere deep inside one day you’re gonna see that clearly Oh
Chorus:
You know it you got it you know you were a waste of time
I know it I wasted four god damned years of me and my daughters lives
They see it they know that I’m stupid for giving your dumb ass a try
Everyone knows I had temporarily lost my mind

Chorus:
You know it you got it you know you were a waste of time
I know it I wasted four god damned years of me and my daughters lives
They see it they know that I’m stupid for giving your dumb ass a try
Everyone knows I had temporarily lost my mind
Track Name: How to Create & Maintain a Hitler
Verse 1:
Classic textbook case
He had a bad childhood
Had a mother who’s a bitch that’s weak
And who’s boyfriends are abusive
they beat her down and
And beat on her kids just the same
At a young age the boy knows he’s gay
But he’s pushed around and forced to change
With a new demeanor he starts to date
He beats on women & watches porn that features rape

Hook 1:
Does drugs with the guys
Stays out too late
Has several fuckin friends
And regrets not a thing
Sucks his brothers off
Likes their cum on his face
Goes home and makes a baby
at the end of the day

Chorus 1:
His girlfriend was slow
And now his daughters the same
And he leaves them both
For a man that whores around & cheats
But finally meets decent guy
But he’s too fucked in the brain
He then leaves the loving man his age
For a pill popper a guy half his age with aids
This is how to create & maintain a Hitler of the modern age

Verse 2:
A new house in a new town
Got a new car and has a new boy around
He’s got a new life and tries love and marriage out
As he tries to believe in his love but he has his doubts
He has this rage that grows inside of him
And the rage makes him unpredictable to even himself
He beats his boy around for four years before he bounced
And went on to the next one

Hook 2:
Beats on this poor guy
His I love you’s are fake
He’s developed this trend
And believes that he’s safe
Thinks his violence is okay
And he trashes his things
And does his teen daughters hair
Even though its something she hates

Chorus 2:
He quits his jobs like what
And quits his school and feels undumb
Thinks it’s bad luck
Doesn’t see that he’s scum
He’s in a world of his own
His only asset is that strangers don’t know
He lives his life in a haze by drugs
Gets drunk and lives buzzed
Collects junk for fun
This is how to create & maintain a Hitler from which we run
we run
we run
He quits his jobs like what
And quits his school and feels undumb
Thinks it’s bad luck
Doesn’t see that he’s scum
He’s in a world of his own
His only asset is that strangers don’t know


Bridge:
Hitler’s are good at hiding the bad
Hitler’s fake happy when really they’re sad
Hitler’s get violent when you make them mad
They show no remorse and are usually glad
When they bring someone pain
Oh boy do they laugh
And punch you in your face
And do around the neck grabs
This is how to create and maintain a Hitler in this day in age

Chorus:
Drama everywhere he goes
Thinks he’s the victim
He just doesn’t know
Boyfriends try to make him whole
But they aint nothing but nagging hos
He smokes another bull
As he sits and sulks
And wonders why he is so alone
He always wants to go home
But even when he’s there
His stare is empty and cold
And keeps his hand handy to play with his own bone
play with his own bone
Drama everywhere he goes
Thinks he’s the victim
He just doesn’t know
He just doesn’t know
He just doesn’t know
He just doesn’t know
He just doesn’t know
He just doesn’t know
Track Name: I'm Not Enough
Verse 1:
I’m not good enough for this guy
I’m not hot enough So why try
I’m not good enough
I’m not hot enough
I’m not fat enough to a fat one
I’m not thin enough for a biggion
I’m not fat enough
I’m not thin enough
I’m not wise enough for a someone with a full deck
I’m not dumb enough for a redneck
I’m not wise enough
I’m not dumb enough
I’m not quick enough to pick the small things up
So I’d lose it all soon as the boss caught on
I’m not quick enough
So I’d lose it all

Verse 2:
I’m not smooth enough to drive the big trucks
I’m not quiet enough I share far too much
I’m not smooth enough
I’m not quiet enough
I’m not straight enough for society
I’m not great enough to anybody
I’m not straight enough
I’m not great enough
I’m not fem enough for this man
I’m not butch enough for that drag
I’m not fem enough
I’m not butch enough
I’m not fresh enough to be played on the radio
I’m not sexy enough to play at gay venues
I’m not fresh enough
I’m not sexy enough

Chorus:
I’m not enough
I - I’m not enough
I’m not enough
I - I’m not enough

Verse 3:
I’m not built enough to have all eyes on me
I’m not tall enough to have a perfect physique
I’m not built enough
I’m not tall enough
I’m not well enough to say that I’m happy
I’m not gonna lie this song is depressing
I’m not well enough
I’m not gonna lie

Chorus:
I’m not enough
I - I’m not enough
I’m not enough
I - I’m not enough

Bridge:
I’m so sick of people tellin’ me there’s nothing wrong with you
When it’s so obvious there is, I am so far from a fool
There’s always a reason I’m not enough for someone
The nicest thing you could do is be mean to me some

I’m asking you I’m begging
Wont you just fill me in on what’s hiding in the shadows
I need to know I need know

Chorus:
I’m not enough
I - I’m not enough
I’m not enough
I - I’m not enough

Chorus:
I’m not enough
I - I’m not enough
I’m not enough
I - I’m not enough
Track Name: It Wasn't Right
Verse 1:
It was tough just being there in that house with you
It really sucked never feeling good enough for you
And it blew not being able to turn to you and share with you
It royally sucked ass not feeling sexy enough for you

Hook:
It wasn’t right
You should have told me
It wasn’t right
to do that to me

Chorus 1:
I want dirty blond hair
Wanna stand about 5’5
And be a dumb boy with mustard green eyes
Then maybe you’ll love me
We’ll have to wait and see
You were my love life
We were a family

Verse 2:
Twas too much simply loving you when not feeling loved back by you
It was really glum all around that house all cramped up next to you
Wasn’t really fun playing dad to you cleaning up your drugs and you
I totally bummed not feeling manly enough for you

Hook:
It wasn’t right
You should have told me
It wasn’t right
to do that to me

Chorus 1:
I want dirty blond hair
Wanna stand about 5’5
And be a dumb boy with mustard green eyes
Then maybe you’ll love me
We’ll have to wait and see
You were my love life
We were a family

Bridge:
I didn’t give into you
I didn’t let you win
I never bowed to you
And you needed it
You’re a selfish dude
You need control of your dick
So now we’re through
You’ll mold that baby
Into a spittin image of you
Oh well to hell with the both of you

Chorus 2:
Don’t want dirty blond hair
I’m bigger than 5’5
I’m not a dumb boy
and I have blue eyes
Don’t need you to love me
I can do better
I’m way to fancy
And you don’t matter

Chorus 2:
Don’t want dirty blond hair
I’m bigger than 5’5
I’m not a dumb boy
and I have blue eyes
Don’t need you to love me
Yo I can do better
And I’m way to fancy
And you just don’t matter

Chorus 2:
I don’t want dirty blond hair
I’m bigger than 5’5
I’m not a dumb boy
and I have blue eyes
Don’t need you to love me
I can do better
I’m way to fancy
And you no longer matter
Track Name: It's Killing Me
It's Killing Me

Verse 1:
I can't talk I can't breathe
I can't move you can't see
That the past is all we’ve got and it's killing me
It's your turn to find out
What the facts are about
You seem dead to what I feel and it's killing me

Chorus 1:
So tired of waiting for the world to know
Flowers never bloom underneath the snow

Verse 2:
I can't hope I can't find
Any peace in your mind
So wake up to the truth of the dream and stop killing me
It's your time to find out
What this life is all about
Don't stay mired in the world of the blind cause it's killing me.

Chorus 2:
So tired of trying to sing my song
So won't you listen and sing along

Bridge:
I can't wait I can't believe
You don’t see why can’t you see what I need
Open your eyes to the light and stop killing me

Chorus 3:
So tired of waiting for you to learn
Will you ever get for your love I yearn
Will your chest ever feel this overwhelming burn
Will you my love ever see the day when it’s your turn
Or will I be the only one who ever feels this hurt
I wish I could fly away like a bird
Cause it’s killing me
Track Name: Mama So True
Chorus:
You were my strength You were my pride
You lead me through all the days of my life
How would my life be without you
You’re my mama so true
You were my strength You were my pride
You lead me through all the days of my life
How would my life be without you
You’re my mama so true

Verse 1:
Let me tell you a story that happened way back in the day
Back when all us kids had to do was play all day
She must have been sent from heaven above
She taught me what right and taught me what’s wrong
I’ll remember her words till my dying day
Son, do right it will pay off one day

Chorus:
You were my strength You were my pride
You lead me through all the days of my life
How would my life be without you
You’re my mama so true
You were my strength You were my pride
You lead me through all the days of my life
How would my life be without you
You’re my mama so true

Verse 2:
Now I’m gonna lay you to sleep at night
Have no fear cause your mommy dear is here
As a man going through this life with fear
I love you mommy cause I know you’ll always be there

Chorus:
You were my strength You were my pride
You lead me through all the days of my life
How would my life be without you
You’re my mama so true
You were my strength You were my pride
You lead me through all the days of my life
How would my life be without you
You’re my mama so true

Verse 3:
As time goes by I realize the truth
That what my mother said should be spoken in groups
As a child you would think what your mother speaks is wrong
But I see now that she has spoke a loving song
Telling me much I didn’t understand
Thank you god for my mother for her helping hand

Chorus:
You were my strength You were my pride
You lead me through all the days of my life
How would my life be without you
You’re my mama so true
You were my strength You were my pride
You lead me through all the days of my life
How would my life be without you
You’re my mama so true

Bridge:
And if I should fall you’re there to pick me up
If I start to cry you’re there to dry my tears
Tell me why are you all love
Why’d god bless me by sending you from above

Chorus:
You were my strength You were my pride
You lead me through all the days of my life
How would my life be without you
You’re my mama so true
You were my strength You were my pride
You lead me through all the days of my life
How would my life be without you
You’re my mama so true
Track Name: Now Go Away
Verse 1:
Goodbye to yesterday
You didn’t want me anyway
Hold on tight to anything
Cause the rides bout to get real bumpy
Obsessed is my middle name
And compulsive is my way
So here’s to a brighter day
Here’s to the lonely
I never loved you baby face
All I did was clung onto a game
You must fuckin be insane
If you think you’re love worthy
You don’t amount to half of me
You is nothin but a shame
So get the fuck off my fuckin stage
You look weepy in the face

Hook:
This is my new perspective
A new way of looking at you
And analyzing our history
Now go away

Chorus:
Yo It doesn’t matter
I’m getting flatter
Feelin better
When you’d just rather
Have another platter
cause your getting fatter
Lookin sadder
I hate to batter
But I’m growing madder
And I love this chatter
You’re just jealous
That I’m so much radder
Yo I love this diddy
Has an awesome patter
I love chris crocker
So you better adder

Verse 2:
So long depressing times
I was always down with you in my life
Now I’m crushed on by lots of guys
And I no longer wish I would die
I think of you and my my my
So much of my time wasted on you Sigh
Now my life is simply one big high
And I’ve made all sorts of brand new ties
I attract guys Both bold and shy
It’s cause I give off a whole new vibe
I no longer live to cry
And I aint even gotta try
So next time you see me I wont even say hi
Bitch boy I aint really gonna lie
You were such a perv suckin on me in the night
But you’re an old man so its no surprise

Hook:
This is my new perspective
A new way of looking at you
And analyzing our history
Now go away

Chorus:
Yo it doesn’t matter
I’m getting flatter
Feelin better
When you’d just rather
Have another platter
cause your getting fatter
Lookin sadder
And I hate to batter
But I’m growing madder
And I love this chatter
You’re just jealous
That I’m so much radder
Yo I love this diddy
Has an awesome patter
I love chris crocker
So you better adder

Chorus:
Yo it doesn’t matter
I’m getting flatter
Feelin better
When you’d just rather
Have another platter
cause your getting fatter
Lookin sadder
And I hate to batter
But I’m growing madder
And I love this chatter
You’re just jealous
That I’m so much radder
Yo I love this diddy
Has an awesome patter
I love chris crocker
So you better adder

Bridge:
Once upon a time there was this sad guy with a depressing soul
Stuck on land when he wanted to fly
Soar away soar away from his strife

Chorus:
Yo it doesn’t matter
I’m getting flatter
Feelin better
When you’d just rather
Have another platter
cause your getting fatter
Lookin sadder
And I hate to batter
But I’m growing madder
And I love this chatter
You’re just jealous
That I’m so much radder
Yo I love this diddy
Has an awesome patter
I love chris crocker
So you better adder
Track Name: Precious Matthew
Verse 1:
I’m glad you brought me heartache
And that you made me cry
Cause that’s the only reason
I met this amazing guy
I dreaded life without you
And I felt the urge to die
And now I can’t believe it
The relief I feel when I look into his beautiful eyes

Chorus:
You’re my precious Matthew yeah you
Yo I’m such a love fool for you
And you are such a weird goof yeah you
Can’t help that I love you yo
You’re just like me and I’m so cool
I love you like I love no other dude
So tell me that you love me too
Cause you’re my precious Matthew

Verse 2:
I can finally live the good life
Finally know what that is like
I can hold my boy and kiss him
I’ll never have a reason to cry
We’ll never have enough good times
I’ll make a husband out of my guy
Then I’ll buy my love a puppy so he sees how hard I try

Chorus:
You’re my precious Matthew yeah you
Yo I’m such a love fool for you
And you are such a weird goof yeah you
Can’t help that I love you yo
You’re just like me and I’m so cool
I love you like I love no other dude
So tell me that you love me too
Cause you’re my precious Matthew

Bridge:
This is the part where the shit gets weird
I’m in love again I’m so fuckin scared
I don’t wanna get hurt but I see him everywhere
I tell him that I love him but he doesn’t seem to care
Well here I am Matt everythings bared
Is it bad for me to love you I just wanna share
My life with you is that so unfair
Come on brah let us share air

Chorus:
You’re my precious Matthew yeah you
Yo I’m such a love fool for you
And you are such a weird goof yeah you
Can’t help that I love you yo
You’re just like me and I’m so cool
I love you like I love no other dude
So tell me that you love me too
Cause you’re my precious Matthew
Track Name: Right Back Atcha
Verse 1:
I’ve got a wild side
Used my blue eyes
Bought myself time
But it never felt right
It was such a fucking crime
To use myself looks-wise
To get ahead in life
My own little Great Divide
I fucking hated doing it
But I was so successful
But it was so productive
Yeah I made everyone smile
Greed guided my passion
I was such a gosh darned handful
And I was so damn selfish

Hook:
In the great scheme of things you just don’t exist
People begin to question if you ever did

Chorus:
Puff puff pass it
Music and music vids
Trailer trash worthless
Learnings fun education
8 hour days stuck slavin
6 hour days vid making
Tell me which one would you pick
Yo I like the jams I’d go with him

Verse 2:
Now I live the single life
It really feels nice
But you could never be that wise
And you have never done it right
Always need a guy by your side
But he’s always just a fill of time
Then its on to the next guy
Cause no ones really your type
Are your drugs not enough
Why must you always need someone
No one really likes drugs
Unless that person is dumb
Find yourself another one
Someone else to be your bum
Cause I’ve never condoned scum

Hook:
In the great scheme of things you just don’t exist
People begin to question if you ever did

Chorus:
Puff puff pass it
Music and music vids
Trailer trash worthless
Learnings fun education
8 hour days stuck slavin
6 hour days vid making
Tell me which one would you pick
Yo I like the jams I’d go with him

Bridge:
The only reason you thought you were something
Is because that’s what I allowed you to think
When in actuality here 3 months later after you’re gone
You mean absolutely nothing

Chorus:
Puff puff pass it
Music and music vids
Trailer trash worthless
Learnings fun education
8 hour days stuck slavin
6 hour days vid making
Tell me which one would you pick
Yo I like the jams I’d go with him

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