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Thanks to both Nap and JPK for helping me decide what to call the new record!

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released May 30, 2016

Music & Lyrics by Bradley Voorhees.
Recorded, mixed, and mastered by Bradley Voorhees at Ed Harbst Studios. Unless noted otherwise on a track's own page.

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Track Name: If Only (Intro)
If you only loved, if you only loved me
If you only loved, if you only loved me
If you only loved, if you only loved me
If you only loved, if you only loved me
Track Name: String of Ends
Verse 1:
I bared my soul to you
When you didn’t have things to do
Then I started to care for you too
Things were running along quite smooth
But you never planned to see it through
Then you showed me that attitude
And here I thought that we were cool
Leave it to me to play the sad love fool

Hook 1:
This can’t be my life
Men always on the fence
How can this be right
This constant string of ends

Chorus:
Oh but it is
How do you fall asleep each night
Because it’s sick
How nonchalantly you can be alright
And I’m the one who has to get
Myself these pills to medicate my mind
And you did this
And there you are feeling just fine

Verse 2:
Look what I continue to
Put myself through
And this so isn’t new
I go through this with every dude
Each time I think we’re singing the same tune
I slowly figure out the truth
How many more time can I lose
Before I realize all men are noobs

Hook 2:
Story of my life
Men always play defense
Something isn’t right
This constant string of ends

Chorus:
Oh but it is
How do you fall asleep each night
Because it’s sick
How nonchalantly you can be alright
And I’m the one who has to get
Myself these pills to medicate my mind
And you did this
And there you are feeling just fine

Bridge:
I Shamelessly brand myself a hopeless romantic
Cause helplessly I’m high strung and oh so frantic
Try to play it cool but then I can’t help that I panic
Blame it on my smooth, smooth life that’s so, so manic

Chorus:
Oh but it is
How do you fall asleep each night
Because it’s sick
How nonchalantly you can be alright
And I’m the one who has to get
Myself these pills to medicate my mind
And you did this
And there you are feeling just fine

Chorus:
Oh but it is
How do you fall asleep each night
Because it’s sick
How nonchalantly you can be alright
And I’m the one who has to get
Myself these pills to medicate my mind
And you did this
And there you are feeling just fine
Track Name: Pictures of His Life
I try to leave due to the fact that he just can’t, or simply will not meet my needs. But then I see that little boy holding a bird; A 1960s toy. And my chest burns. My eyes moisten. My head hurts, and I can’t seem to focus enough to walk away.

I open up and he rejects me, like he’s fed up with me being so clingy. Fuck my life! My life. Then I see that boy in his cap and gown looking miserable, but at least no longer looking down. And so I stay, ‘cause I can’t leave. My heart yearns to set him free, so one day he’ll rescue me.

And then I see him standing there, in his uniform, so proud. Big smile on his face, ear to ear, like ‘wow.’ And I can’t let go. No, I can’t go now. I love him too big, but it’s like I feel all these things alone.

Then I get a glimpse of the happy guy; Smiling big, friends around, stud of love. It’s what he’s all about; It’s who he is.

But where do I fit in? Where do I fit in? How will I fit in? When will I fit in? Will I ever fit in?
Track Name: If Only (Interlude 1)
If you felt about me how I felt about you
I’d hear from you every single day
If you thought about me how I thought about you
You’d love me in every single way
In your mind I’d always be
I’d be after every thought you’d think
This song would have never come to be
If you only felt if you only thought about me
Track Name: A Book (Piano-Only Demo)
Verse 1:
I’ve got to learn not to expect too much out of men
I’ve learned only trouble comes from setting high expectations
I’ve got a righteous way of weeding out all the ones
Who can’t live up to my high standards

Chorus:
A book cannot give head
A book does not put out
A book wont be my friend
Or make me scream and shout
And a book cannot get wet
Let alone have a mouth
No a book just doesn’t get
What humans are all about

Verse 2:
The only problem is that I never have anyone left
So standing on my higher ground
I’ve got only my morals and books to keep me company
Woo-hoo stick your finger up my ass

Chorus:
A book cannot give head
A book does not put out
A book wont be my friend
Or make me scream and shout
And a book cannot get wet
Let alone have a mouth
No a book just doesn’t get
What humans are all about
Track Name: If Only (Interlude 2)
If you cared about me how I cared about you
I would have never ever cried
If you’d melt around me how I’d melt around you
I’d have been able to sleep at night
In your arms I’d always be
I’d be in-between every thought you’d think
This track wouldn’t have come so easily
If you only cared If you’d only melt around me
Track Name: I Forgive You (Give 'em Hope 10)
Mmm, give ‘em hope

Verse 1:
No more stories no more “sorrys”
They just don’t understand me
I don’t got to defend my right to live
You’ve got to see me for who I am

Sometimes I look inside of myself and I thank you God

Verse 2:
You can criticize me for how I act
Or how I speak of different things
You just go ahead make me out that way
I will prove it to you some day

Chorus:
Sure I know that you’ll never become my best friend
But you’ll remain in my memories
Sure I know that I’ll probably never see you again
But you’ll remain in my memories

Verse 3:
You thought you knew how I really was
You made fun of me throughout my life
When I turned out this way I saw the look on your face
But I forgive you

Bridge:
I forgive you
Hey, I forgive you
I forgive you
I forgive you
I forgive you
I forgive you

Falling to the ground
Disappear without a trace
Never make a sound down
You’ve lost your place
And when no one knows that you’re around
They can still kick you in the face
Until your superhero’s found
He gives you hope gives you his cape

Chorus:
Sure I know that you’ll never become my best friend
But you’ll remain in my memories
Sure I know that I’ll probably never see you again
But you’ll remain in my memories (My memories)

Link:
I was lost but now I’m found
The cool people they always put me down
I grew up and I found out
I didn’t need their love I just needed to be myself

Chorus:
Sure I know that you’ll never become my best friend
But you’ll remain in my memories
Sure I know that I’ll probably never see you again
But you’ll remain in my memories

Chorus:
Sure I know that you’ll never become my best friend
But you’ll remain in my memories
Sure I know that I’ll probably never see you again
But you’ll remain in my memories
Track Name: Your Girlfriends
Verse 1:
At first I didn’t even know he existed
And afterwards he was always so distant
So ya see I never even really knew him
Time spent together it was always so hectic
hurried or crowded yo not at all private
So the few words that were spoken had to be worth it
And what’d I get?

Chorus:
Gay is sin
Bring over your girlfriends
anytime you wish
But I love you kid
You’ve got to stop moving
One day you’ll run out of places to live
I’ve got a wife and kids
So no you can’t move in
That’s what he said

Verse 2:
At 35 I decided it was time
To reach out again to give he and I one more try
I should have known “all or nothing” wouldn’t fly
And I started to care for the guy mmm
Don’t know why I freakin’ even attempted
After hearing things like “you’re built like a woman”
I might have guessed I wouldn’t be worth his time again
And that was just once

Chorus:
Gay is sin
Bring over your girlfriends
anytime you wish
But I love you kid
You’ve got to stop moving
One day you’ll run out of places to live
I’ve got a wife and kids
So no you can’t move in

Bridge:
Even now as I write this
Know always that to me you’re still worth it
And you’ll always be flawfully perfect
I love you pops even thought right now I’m hurtin
But you can’t call the shots and actually expect
Me to roll along with it like some folks have
You ain’t a god man you’re just a man
So show your son some got-damn respect
I never knew you you were just some man
While you played house and became other kids dad
Got time run your mouth but ain’t got time for Brad
What the fuck pops that’s just downright sad
And don’t think I’m weak just cause I ask
For 5 fuckin minutes to spend with my old man
“But the girls don’t need my attention like you do”
“Yeah but that’s cause they always fucking had you”

Chorus:
Gay is sin
Bring over your girlfriends
anytime you wish
But I love you kid
You’ve got to stop moving
One day you’ll run out of places to live
I’ve got a wife and kids
So no you can’t move in
That’s what he said…

Chorus:
Gay is sin
Bring over your girlfriends
anytime you wish
But I love you kid
You’ve got to stop moving
One day you’ll run out of places to live
I’ve got a wife and kids
So no you can’t move in
Track Name: Kids!
Verse 1:
A little older now
A little wiser now
A little gray comes out
And then my relevance bows

Hook:
I ain’t gotta be young and hip
To still have full use of my hips
I ain’t gotta be blonde with tits
For my videos to get hits

Or do I?

Chorus:
The world caters
To teenager kids
Good lord haters
What a sweet pile of shit
The world revolves around
Those dumb gamer vids
How simple minded
I fear for our nation

Verse 2:
Long-legged socks stretched out
And telephones stuck in the house
No typing your feelings out
Had to actually use our mouths

Hook 2:
And parents they didn’t have to be rich
To provide Christmas for their kids
In an age full of electronics
Life’s no longer simplistic

But I can conform to this, can’t I?

Chorus:
The world caters
To teenager kids
Good lord haters
What a sweet pile of shit
The world revolves around
Those dumb gamer vids
How simple minded
I fear for our nation

Chorus:
The world caters
To teenager kids
Good lord haters
What a sweet pile of shit
The world revolves around
Those dumb gamer vids
How simple minded
I fear for our nation

Bridge:
Guess it’s time I pass along my tourche…
Oh wait a minute fuck that!
You gon’ have to pry that shit outta my cold dead hands

Chorus:
The world caters
To teenager kids
Good lord haters
What a sweet pile of shit
The world revolves around
Those dumb gamer vids
How simple minded
I fear for our nation

Chorus:
The world caters
To teenager kids
Good lord haters
What a sweet pile of shit
The world revolves around
Those dumb gamer vids
How simple minded
I fear for our nation

Kids!
Track Name: Teardrops Off the Floor
Verse 1:
I told you goodbye
Then wiped 3 teardrops off the floor
Then turned off my phone and began writing this song
Emotionally worn

Hook:
You don’t have the heart for me
You don’t have no room for me
You made it pretty clear to me
You didn’t have the time for me

Chorus:
The kicker here is
You knew you were being an ass
While I thought you were just ignorant
And that would have been less bad

Verse 2:
I figured you’d try
A little more this time around
To make this thing work between us but you haven’t
Why’m I not surprised?

Hook:
You don’t have the heart for me
You don’t have no room for me
You made it pretty clear to me
You didn’t have the time for me

Chorus:
The kicker here is
You knew you were being an ass
While I thought you were just ignorant
And that would have been less bad

Bridge:
Hey Brad it’s your mean dad
I was pretty hard on you
I handled that bad
The way I spoke wasn’t cool
And I’m sorry that
I had that attitude
And I promise not to have
another awful mood
when I speak to you again

Is that all I’m worth?
Is this your defense?
A couple pointless words?
voicemails are a.,.

Chorus:
The kicker here is
You knew you were being an ass
While I thought you were just ignorant
And that would have been less bad

Chorus:
The kicker here is
You knew you were being an ass
While I thought you were just ignorant
And that would have been less bad

Chorus:
The kicker here is
You knew you were being an ass
While I thought you were just ignorant
And that would have been less bad
Track Name: Give 'em Hope You Double Slash (Give 'em Hope 11)
Intro:
Ahem Give ‘em hope double slash
Give ‘em hope double slash

Verse 1:
I was physically abused by you
Not to mention mentally disturbed by you
I was inhumanly misused by you
So all my insecurities are because of you

Hook:
Shot down never feel up
Thrown around everyday never feel safe
Never can erase the pain you gave to me
I really can’t explain the way you treated me
Shot down never feel up
Thrown around everyday never feel safe
Never can erase the pain you gave to me
I really can’t explain the way you treated me

Chorus:
And you did this
(You you you)
But I’m not pissed
(You you you you)
‘Cause you will get
(You you you)
The hope I never did
(You you you you)

Link:
And I didn’t care
That you didn’t care
That nobody cared here now go away
No I didn’t care
That you didn’t care
That nobody cared here now go away

Verse 2:
I was metaphorically laid down by you
not to mention the victim of your attitude
I was stripped thoroughly of my dignity
You’re the main cause of my difficulty

Hook:
Shot down never feel up
Thrown around everyday never feel safe
Never can erase the pain you gave to me
I really can’t explain the way you treated me
Shot down never feel up
Thrown around everyday never feel safe
Never can erase the pain you gave to me
I really can’t explain the way you treated me

Chorus:
And you did this
(You you you)
But I’m not pissed
(You you you you)
‘Cause you will get
(You you you)
The hope I never did
(You you you you)

Link:
And I didn’t care
That you didn’t care
That nobody cared here now go away
No I didn’t care
That you didn’t care
That nobody cared here now go away

Bridge Rap:
You never once thought about how your words affected me
How your curses were torturous and deafening
Scratch that, slash that maybe you wanna be
The same kinda man as your sworn enemy
Your own dad your old man
with his name-calling alcoholic fad
His belt-licking sucker punching “gotta beat his ass” bad
His mother fuckin “pass the evil to his kid” kinda dad

Chorus/Link (Simultaneously):
And you did this
(You you you)
But I’m not pissed
(You you you you)
‘Cause you will get
(You you you)
The hope I never did
(You you you you)
And I didn’t care
That you didn’t care
That nobody cared here now go away
No I didn’t care
That you didn’t care
That nobody cared here now go away


End Chorus:
And you did this
(You you you)
But I’m not pissed
(You you you you)
‘Cause you will get
(You you you)
The hope I never did
I’ve got hope again
Track Name: Worms in the Lake
Verse 1:
This was my last resort
You were only a phase
Now I’ll be slamming the door
Right in your bloody face
I’m throwing this can of worms
Right back in the lake
Tied to a brick with a letter that reads:

Chorus:
Goodbye to everything
That is you and me
Though barely anything
And now simply nothing
I won’t carry your name
Not while it’s tainted with shame
Goodbye to everything
That is you and me
Though barely anything
And now simply nothing
I won’t carry your name
Not while it’s
Not while it’s tainted with shame

Verse 2:
You really broke my heart
With your loveless and empty eyes
Don’t know how to love me with warmth
And I can’t help you out this time
These issues are foreign to me
Dunno why I even tried
It’s neglectful and tiring
But now I have made up my mind
I’m throwing this can of worms
Right back in the lake
Tied to a brick with a letter that reads:

Chorus:
Goodbye to everything
That is you and me
Though barely anything
And now simply nothing
But I won’t carry your name
Not while it’s tainted with shame
Goodbye to everything
That is you and me
Though barely anything
And now simply nothing
But I won’t carry your name
Not while it’s
Not while it’s tainted with shame
Track Name: The Great Ascent
Verse 1:
He was always so good to her because she was his crowning achievement
And when he finally gave her his last dance she was heartbroken

Hook 1:
First he fell then she felt so alone
All alone nobody’s baby girl anymore
Teary-eyed can’t see clear
Already missed him so dear

Chorus:
I don’t ever wanna say goodbye
Trust me that I’ll never be that guy
You know that this isn’t the end
It’s the beginning of the great ascent
The great ascent
I know I’ll see you again
This I promise

Verse 2:
She was always so grateful to him so full of warmth and compassion
And when she finally had to let him go she was devastated

Hook 2:
It’s been weeks and she still feels him there (feels him there)
Days cannot erase him it seems so unreal
Even now it’s so sad so surreal (so surreal)
She worries he wont know how she feels

Chorus:
I don’t ever wanna say goodbye
Trust me that I’ll never be that guy
You know that this isn’t the end
It’s the beginning of the great ascent
The great ascent
I know I’ll see you again
This I promise

Bridge:
Clarence
Clarence
Clarence
Clarence

Chorus:
I don’t ever wanna say goodbye
Trust me that I’ll never be that guy
You know that this isn’t the end
It’s the beginning of the great ascent
The great ascent
I know I’ll see you again
This I promise

Chorus:
I don’t ever wanna say goodbye
Trust me that I’ll never be that guy
You know that this isn’t the end
It’s the beginning of the great ascent
The great ascent
I know I’ll see you again
This I promise
Track Name: The Mean Boyfriend Song
Intro Chorus:
I wont give a shit ‘cause I’ll already be gone
I wont give a shit like I never did all along
I don’t give a shit if you think that I fucked you up
I don’t give a shit if I hurt you it’s not my problem

Verse 1:
You said you’d love me
Until the bitter end
But what you meant was
I’ll really play with your head
I’ll make you believe the words I say are genuine
But I’ll torment you for fun by stringing you along and then

Chorus:
I wont give a shit ‘cause I’ll already be gone
I wont give a shit like I never did all along
I don’t give a shit if you think that I fucked you up
I don’t give a shit if I hurt you it’s not my problem

Verse 2:
You said you couldn’t
Imagine life without me
But that’s only ‘cause
You found my pain entertaining
I’ll use you as a punching bag My stress relief
Might as well have shared your master plan for me by saying

Chorus:
I wont give a shit ‘cause I’ll already be gone
I wont give a shit like I never did all along
I don’t give a shit if you think that I fucked you up
I don’t give a shit if I hurt you It’s not my problem

Bridge:
There’s one way I’m different now
And it happened after you
My yearning to seek a love out
Is no longer an issue
Cause I can’t love anymore like holy cow
Guys should come with tissues
Or maybe have less issues
Okay you can bitch now
You can take this song out

Chorus:
I wont give a shit ‘cause I’ll already be gone
I wont give a shit like I never did all along
I don’t give a shit if you think that I fucked you up
I don’t give a shit if I hurt you it’s not my problem

Chorus:
I wont give a shit ‘cause I’ll already be gone
I wont give a shit like I never did all along
I don’t give a shit if you think that I fucked you up
I don’t give a shit if I hurt you it’s not my problem
Track Name: All of Your Life
Verse 1:
I know why you want me
I know you’re watching me
All of your life (All of your life)
I know why you need me
I know how you see me
I know everything there is to know about you

Chorus:
‘Cause you are the light of my life
I look at you from across the way
I look right into your eyes
And you’re looking back
You are the light of my life
I look at you from across the way
I look right into your eyes
And you’re looking back at my face

Verse 2:
I know how you have me
I know how you got me
For all of your life (All of your life)
I know how you play me
I like how you tease me
I know everything there is to know about you

Chorus:
‘Cause you are the light of my life
I look at you from across the way
I look right into your eyes
And you’re looking back
You are the light of my life
I look at you from across the way
I look right into your eyes
And you’re looking back at my face

Bridge:
Cause I see light when I look into your eyes I see your soul
And afterwards why would anyone ever wanna let you go
No I don’t want to think about where I’d end up without you you make me whole
And I know that you will always be there and that’s why I love you the most

Spoken:
‘Cause you are the light of my life
I look at you from across the way
I look right into your eyes
And you’re looking back at my face

Half Chorus:
‘Cause you are the light of my life
I look at you from across the way
I look right into your eyes
And you’re looking back

Chorus/Bridge (Simultaneously):
You are the light of my life
I look at you from across the way
I look right into your eyes
And you’re looking back
you are the light of my life
I look at you from across the way
I look right into your eyes
And you’re looking back at my face

Cause I see light when I look into your eyes I see your soul
And afterwards why would anyone ever wanna let you go
No I don’t want to think about where I’d end up without you you make me whole
And I know that you will always be there and that’s why I love you the most