Event Horizon

by Bradley Voorhees

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released December 23, 2016

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Track Name: Alleged Victim
Verse 1:
There’s not a thing you could say now
That would ever erase how
You made me feel down and out
(And then reveled while I was down)
My ambition might be unfound
But at least my soul is still unbound
Guys like you are still not allowed
(Though that doesn’t stop them from coming around)

Hook:
I think I wanted love a little more than I wanted you
(In love I feared that you could never be - at least not with me and)
I think that a big part of me actually hated you too
(I think it was the idea that we lacked any sort of normalcy)

Chorus:
No need to surrender
I’m not coming for you
So go out on your bender
And get yourself a likeminded dude
There’ll be no more needless pressure
Your depts are forgiven
Now go clear out your dresser
You’re no longer my alleged victim

Verse 2:
There’s not a whole lot of love left
When you split I became less
You left a hole deep in my chest
(And now my eyes are always wet)
And now my head is such a mess
Dunno why I never fled
It’s not like you and I ever wed
(guess I liked the pain that you’d inflict instead)

Hook:
I think I wanted love a little more than I wanted you
(In love I feared that you could never be - at least not with me and)
I think that a big part of me actually hated you too
(I think it was the idea that we lacked any sort of normalcy)

Chorus:
No need to surrender
I’m not coming for you
So go out on your bender
And get yourself a likeminded dude
There’ll be no more needless pressure
Your depts are forgiven
Now go clear out your dresser
You’re no longer my alleged victim

Bridge:
How did I live that whole time
With doubts of our life nearly every night
When inside I fought myself until I died
And all of my fears and self-loathing how are you the victim and not I?

Chorus (x2):
No need to surrender
I’m not coming for you
So go out on your bender
And get yourself a likeminded dude
There’ll be no more needless pressure
Your depts are forgiven
Now go clear out your dresser
You’re no longer my alleged victim
Track Name: Metamorphosis
Verse 1:
I know I’m not the first one to take this journey | and I won’t be the last
I only wish there was help for me | but there is no one or anything, alas

Hook 1:
And the fact is I’m already gone now
I'm not the man who once made you so proud
And although it's sad, trust you won’t want me around no more
'Cause it happens so fast

Chorus:
Don't remember me as all this
Remember me when I wasn't split
or being forced to dig this grave I’m in
or being forced into this metamorphosis
“Reminisce,” sure, but try not to “miss”
I’m no longer “him”
Now I’m counterfeit
There’s no escaping it
A bottomless pit
where no light omits
in metamorphosis

Verse 2:
I never did expect I’d understand the final words of Tim
I’d like to think I could handle it, but just look what it did to him

Hook 2:
And what sucks is I’m already half way there
As I write this, I’m glad you stay unaware
‘Cause I’d die if I brought you into my nightmare
And it happens in a flash

Chorus (x2):
Don't remember me as all this
Remember me when I wasn't split
or being forced to dig this grave I’m in
or being forced into this metamorphosis
“Reminisce,” sure, but try not to “miss”
I’m no longer “him”
Now I’m counterfeit
There’s no escaping it
A bottomless pit
where no light omits
in metamorphosis

Chorus:
Don't remember me as all this
Remember me when I wasn't split
or being forced to dig this grave I’m in
or being forced into this metamorphosis
“Reminisce,” sure, but try not to “miss”
I’m no longer “him”
Now I’m counterfeit
There’s no escaping it
A bottomless pit
where no light omits
in metamorphosis

Bridge:
Traveling for a long, long time
Knowing that once I get there I will die
But I sail along
I sail alone
I sail along

Chorus:
Don't remember me as all this
Remember me when I wasn't split
or being forced to dig this grave I’m in
or being forced into this metamorphosis
“Reminisce,” sure, but try not to “miss”
I’m no longer “him”
Now I’m counterfeit
There’s no escaping it
A bottomless pit
where no light omits
in metamorphosis

Don’t remember
Reminisce, sure

Chorus:
Don't remember me as all this
Remember me when I wasn't split
or being forced to dig this grave I’m in
or being forced into this metamorphosis
“Reminisce,” sure, but try not to “miss”
I’m no longer “him”
Now I’m counterfeit
There’s no escaping it
A bottomless pit
where no light omits
in metamorphosis
Track Name: The Scale Tips
Verse 1:
I took you for granted
Assumed you’d be mine forever just to have
Kind of funny how it all happened
It was a fear of mine that outlasted

Hook 1:
The rational me (I hate myself)
The remorseful me (I hate myself)
From within I plead (I love myself)
But to no avail it’s still bleak (I hate myself)

Chorus:
I watch as the scale tips
Dumbstruck
But I stay fastened in
And I don’t get up
I hate that I’m fascinated
Think that I’ve lost touch
Maybe I’m emasculated
This is more than bad luck
Yes it is

Verse 2:
You saw but you didn’t know
We fought cause I didn’t know how to let you go

Hook 2:
What a waste of me (I hate myself)
Not an ounce of humanity (I hate myself)
No light left to see (I fear myself)
No good left of me (I loath myself)

Chorus:
I watch as the scale tips
Dumbstruck
But I stay fastened in
And I don’t get up
I hate that I’m fascinated
Think that I’ve lost touch
Maybe I’m emasculated
This is more than bad luck
Yes it is
I’m done

Chorus:
I watch as the scale tips
Dumbstruck
But I stay fastened in
And I don’t get up
I hate that I’m fascinated
Think that I’ve lost touch
Maybe I’m emasculated
This is more than bad luck
Yes it is
I’m done

Bridge:
How many days ‘til I’m full-on unhinged
How many ways have I predicted this

Chorus:
I watch as the scale tips
Dumbstruck
But I stay fastened in
And I don’t get up
I hate that I’m fascinated
Think that I’ve lost touch
Maybe I’m emasculated
This is more than bad luck
Yes it is
I’m done

Chorus:
I watch as the scale tips
Dumbstruck
But I stay fastened in
And I don’t get up
I hate that I’m fascinated
Think that I’ve lost touch
Maybe I’m emasculated
This is more than bad luck
Yes it is
I’m done
Track Name: Why is This My Life (Segue)
Why is this my life?
Why is this my life?
Why is this my life?
Why is this my life?
Track Name: Fake Numbered
Verse 1:
I’ve been feeling ambitious ever since we first met.
So I have to call you to tell you I think we’re a perfect set.
The way you make me feel I swear to you I’ll never forget.
I think I love you bae, but lets not get ahead.

Hook 1:
So I call feeling fantastic.
Wanna tell you that I’m feeling ecstatic.
Wanna see if you think what we have is magic.
But what I find instead leaves me flabbergasted.

Chorus:
I’m sorry but the number you’re trying to reach is no longer in service.
Goodbye. (Goodbye.)
I’m sorry but the number you’re trying to reach has been disconnected.
Goodbye. (Goodbye.)

Verse 2:
I’ve been re-contemplating it all and guess what, you’re still in my dept.
And you’ll remain there, love, for as long as you’re in my head.
Can’t believe I once thought of you as a fuck-ing perfect-10.
One day I know I’ll feel good, and loved. The question is when.

Hook 2:
‘Cause I called feeling fantastic.
Wanted to tell you I was feeling ecstatic.
Wanted to see if you thought what we had was magic.
But what I found instead left me flabbergasted.

Chorus:
I’m sorry but the number you’re trying to reach is no longer in service.
Goodbye. (Goodbye.)
I’m sorry but the number you’re trying to reach has been disconnected.
Goodbye. (Goodbye.)

Bridge:
There’s so many things I had to say; so many ways that I felt changed.
Thought you’d care since you’re the one that fixed me up, made me feel loved, and now I’m crushed. And it’s you I blame, you’re just the same as all men, lame. Forget my name, forget we came. It isn’t fair. We had spunk, we had flare. I called you but there was no one there.

Chorus:
I’m sorry but the number you’re trying to reach is no longer in service.
Goodbye. (Goodbye.)
I’m sorry but the number you’re trying to reach has been disconnected.
Goodbye. (Goodbye.)

Chorus/End:
I’m sorry but the number you’re trying to reach is no longer in service.
Goodbye. (Goodbye.)
I’m sorry.,.
What in the actual fuck!?!
.,.Trying to reach.,.
Did I seriously get fake numbered?!
Goodbye. Goodbye. Damn! Goodbye.
Track Name: Didn't Click
Verse 1:
We, we were not happy oh no
We were not healthy at all
I can’t keep making the same mistakes

Hook 1:
We just didn’t click
Because you were a dick
And because you made me sick
Because your heart was a brick
And there just wasn’t a fix
Because we just didn’t mix
Far too many conflicts
There’s so much more to this list

Chorus:
Look
(I am done, I am done)
I am done
(I am done, I am done)
No more tries
(No more tries, no more tries)
I’m fed up
(No more tries, no more tries)
No more lying
(No more lies, no more lies)
There’s no trust
(No more lies, no more lies)
No more crying
(No more cries, no more cries)
(No more cries, no more cries)

Verse 2:
You, you made me feel so alive
And then you left so I cried
And it’s grown ever harder to fake you

Hook 2:
And it’s sad that we just didn’t click
Because you were a prick
And because you made me pick
A life full of your shit
And anticipated fits
I wanted love and kisses
Instead of a delinquent
I got dis after dis

Chorus:
Look
(I am done, I am done)
I am done
(I am done, I am done)
No more tries
(No more tries, no more tries)
I’m fed up
(No more tries, no more tries)
No more lying
(No more lies, no more lies)
There’s no trust
(No more lies, no more lies)
No more crying
(No more cries, no more cries)
(No more cries, no more cries)

Bridge:
I live my life for myself now
I live my life for myself now

Chorus:
Look
(I am done, I am done)
I am done
(I am done, I am done)
No more tries
(No more tries, no more tries)
I’m fed up
(No more tries, no more tries)
No more lying
(No more lies, no more lies)
There’s no trust
(No more lies, no more lies)
No more crying
(No more cries, no more cries)
(No more cries, no more cries)

Chorus:
Look
(I am done, I am done)
I am done
(I am done, I am done)
No more tries
(No more tries, no more tries)
I’m fed up
(No more tries, no more tries)
No more lying
(No more lies, no more lies)
There’s no trust
(No more lies, no more lies)
No more crying
(No more cries, no more cries)
(No more cries, no more cries)
Track Name: What I Found
Verse 1:
It didn’t happen when I was young
Yet they all seem to think that it does
It only happened when I grew the fuck up
This is what it looks like. Is this too much?

Hook 1:
So I shut off all the music and I just sat there in silence until the answers started to pour in. And boy did they pour.

Chorus:
And this is what I found
I found out why I’m all alone
Because no one’s ever made me whole
And ‘cause no one’s ever cared to know
And so this is what I found, bae
And why I now have to go
And what exactly made it so
And what turns somebody’s heart to stone

Verse 2:
I should be dead now I should be gone
Yet here I sit like I’m growing young
And every day’s like
“Isn’t it about time?
I put in enough right?”
Now I’m feeling outside

Hook 2:
You don’t wanna know how
I went from most promising to blackout
Well join the fucking crowd
I’m thinking you wont like what I found out

Chorus:
‘Cause this is what I found
I found out why I’m all alone
Because no one’s ever made me whole
And ‘cause no one’s ever cared to know
And so this is what I found, bae
And why I now have to go
And what exactly made it so
And what turns somebody’s heart to stone

Chorus:
And this is what I found
I found out why I’m all alone
Because no one’s ever made me whole
And ‘cause no one’s ever cared to know
And so this is what I found, bae
And why I now have to go
And what exactly made it so
And what turns somebody’s heart to stone
Track Name: Marooned
Verse 1:
My inner voice, man it’s such a bitch
My blue eyes moist, and I start feeling sick
I don’t have a choice, I just have to deal with it
I sit here as it destroys my very sad existence
We’re all our own worst critics
When you’re all alone, it’s a voice that starts to rip
Apart everything you know, and the very way you live
And it leaves no room to grow, so we start to lose our grip

Chorus:
And I’m standing here all confused
But I don’t blame it all on you
And I’m starting to feel consumed
besides what have I got to lose?
It’s like I’ve already been marooned
I’ve already played the fool
And my simple life went kaboom
I don’t wanna go back to school

Verse 2:
Although I can’t say when I first started noticing
The distinctive awful bend of this fragile state I’m in
My psyche is not my friend, now I’m not sure that I’ll mend
And the wounds that I now have foreshadow the scary end
And there is no light while you’re in the devil’s den
And it doesn’t feel alright in here while it’s happening
And my conscience it can bleed only it cannot be seen
So the mind’s eye doesn’t see while it’s in this in-between

Chorus:
And I’m standing here all confused
But I don’t blame it all on you
And I’m starting to feel consumed
besides what have I got to lose?
It’s like I’ve already been marooned
I’ve already played the fool
And my simple life went kaboom
I don’t wanna go back to school

Bridge:
I don’t know what happened here
I’m in shock it’s still unclear
I’m not sure that a god is near
All I know is nothing stops this, stops this fear

Chorus:
And I’m standing here all confused
But I don’t blame it all on you
And I’m starting to feel consumed
besides what have I got to lose?
It’s like I’ve already been marooned
I’ve already played the fool
And my simple life went kaboom
I don’t wanna go back to school
Track Name: Black Robe (Segue)
Don't black robe me you don't know me
Track Name: Fem Boyfriend
Verse 1:
So many guys like ‘em rough
They say things like “Don’t want no woman”
You think that you’re manly but dude you still take it up the butt
Maybe spend less of your time with acting
You know, frontin’ like you’re really manly
And ponder how to make your guy happy, instead
That’s why I gots to have me

Chorus:
A fem boyfriend
Yes fem boyfriend
A guy with compassion
Wont you be my fem boyfriend
A guy who listens
My fem boyfriend
A guy who reasons
I want you as my boyfriend

Verse 2:
Why waste your time trying to act “straight”
When it isn‘t cute it’s kind of annoying
It’s the cause of every headache guys like you and I have ever had
Feminine guys still have pecs
And biceps for miles on end
Every bit as much of a man
Only they’re competent
That’s why I gots to have me

Chorus:
A fem boyfriend
Yes fem boyfriend
A guy with compassion
Wont you be my fem boyfriend
A guy who listens
My fem boyfriend
A guy who reasons
I want you as my boyfriend
Track Name: Silent Night
One:
Silent night, peaceful night
All is calm as the snow falls bright
Surround yourself with your family and friends
Snuggle tightly to keep the warmth in
Dream in a glorious sleep
Dream in a glorious sleep

Two:
Silent night, lovely night
Kids on their sleds while their dogs pull them tight
Dad makes hot coco while mom cheers you on
Lovers kissing like Billy and Jon
The Christmas spirit is here
The Christmas spirit is here

One:
Silent night, peaceful night
All is calm as the snow falls bright
Surround yourself with your family and friends
Snuggle tightly to keep the warmth in
Dream in a glorious sleep
Dream in a glorious sleep
Track Name: Snap Out of It
Verse 1:
There was no substance in your eyes
I sat back and watched you fucking die inside
There was no warmth in your touch
I sat back and watched you just not give a fuck

Hook:
And I waited and I waited and I waited but you never did

Chorus:
Snap out of it
Come back to life
Because you’re missed
A dimming light

Verse 2:
In the beginning when we first met
You were so resilient and charismatic
But over the years you let yourself go
And I sat back and watched you as you lost your glow

Hook:
And I waited and I waited and I waited but you never did

Chorus:
Snap out of it
Come back to life
Because you’re missed
A dimming light

[break]

Chorus (2x):
Snap out of it
Come back to life
Because you’re missed
A dimming light
Track Name: Crying Tears
Verse 1:
I remember when it was you and me forever
And I don’t know what the future brings
But hopefully we’ll be happy

Chorus:
Crying tears rolling down my cheek
Crying tears I’m hurt for eternity
Please just try to realize my pain
Before it’s too late

Verse 2:
I remember that we were always together
I don’t know what tomorrow brings
But hopefully you’ll be wearing my ring

Chorus:
Crying tears rolling down my cheek
Crying tears I’m hurt for eternity
Please just try to realize my pain
Before it’s too late

Link:
Yes I know that we were young
Walking around the mall
And taking the mini-bus
But we still could have had it all
Where did we go so wrong
I want you back because
You were my best friend

Bridge:
I don’t wanna cry
While letting you deny
Our lovely life

Chorus:
Crying tears rolling down my cheek
Crying tears I’m hurt for eternity
Please just try to realize my pain
My pain
My pain
Crying tears rolling down my cheek
Crying tears I’m hurt for eternity
Please just try to realize my pain
My pain
My pain
Track Name: What Would I be Like
Verse 1:
There are strings present in front of me
Winding and twisting who knows where they’ll lead
What string do I take I guess we’ll have to wait and see
Besides I’m not sure if I’ll like my chosen destiny

Chorus:
What would I be like today
If you and I had never come to be
Would I still live passive/aggressively
Would I still be unhinging this rapidly

Verse 2:
There are stars spread out across the nighttime sky
So looking out I’m looking back I have to stop and wonder why
Waiting for that ever illusive edge to come into light
Wondering if it’ll bring a better fate to me before I’m out of time

Chorus:
What would I be like today
If you and I had never come to be
Would I still live passive/aggressively
Would I still be unhinging this rapidly

Bridge:
Would I love all evil people
Would I laugh at guys who are feeble

Chorus:
What would I be like today
If you and I had never come to be
Would I still live passive/aggressively
Would I still be unhinging this rapidly

Chorus:
What would I be like today
If you and I had never come to be
Would I still live passive/aggressively
Would I still be unhinging this rapidly
Track Name: Alleged Victim (AutoTuneLess Version)
Verse 1:
There’s not a thing you could say now
That would ever erase how
You made me feel down and out
(And then reveled while I was down)
My ambition might be unfound
But at least my soul is still unbound
Guys like you are still not allowed
(Though that doesn’t stop them from coming around)

Hook:
I think I wanted love a little more than I wanted you
(In love I feared that you could never be - at least not with me and)
I think that a big part of me actually hated you too
(I think it was the idea that we lacked any sort of normalcy)

Chorus:
No need to surrender
I’m not coming for you
So go out on your bender
And get yourself a likeminded dude
There’ll be no more needless pressure
Your depts are forgiven
Now go clear out your dresser
You’re no longer my alleged victim

Verse 2:
There’s not a whole lot of love left
When you split I became less
You left a hole deep in my chest
(And now my eyes are always wet)
And now my head is such a mess
Dunno why I never fled
It’s not like you and I ever wed
(Guess I liked the pain that you’d inflict instead)

Hook:
I think I wanted love a little more than I wanted you
(In love I feared that you could never be - at least not with me and)
I think that a big part of me actually hated you too
(I think it was the idea that we lacked any sort of normalcy)

Chorus:
No need to surrender
I’m not coming for you
So go out on your bender
And get yourself a likeminded dude
There’ll be no more needless pressure
Your depts are forgiven
Now go clear out your dresser
You’re no longer my alleged victim

Bridge:
How did I live that whole time
With doubts of our life nearly every night
When inside I fought myself until I died
And all of my fears and self-loathing how are you the victim and not I?

Chorus (x2):
No need to surrender
I’m not coming for you
So go out on your bender
And get yourself a likeminded dude
There’ll be no more needless pressure
Your depts are forgiven
Now go clear out your dresser
You’re no longer my alleged victim
Track Name: UnReinvent Me (Live Outro)
There was nothing wrong with me.
There was nothing wrong with me.
There was nothing wrong with me that required a reinvention.
UnReinvent me!
What was I complaining for?
Nothing wrong with me.
There was nothing wrong with me.
Nothing wrong.
There was nothing wrong with me.