Gay in Insanity

by Bradley Voorhees

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released October 31, 2011

All tracks written by Bradley Voorhees.

Except, track 7 lyrics by JohnJustHuman (youtube.com/johnjusthuman),

All tracks recorded, mixed, and mastered by B. Voorhees. at Ed Harbst Studios

All music performed by B. Voorhees.

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Track Name: Yes I Am (Intro)
Yes I am yes I am yes I am yes I am yes I am
Yes I am yes I am yes I am yes I am yes I am

Verse 1:
I’m still here crying
Desperately trying
To let go of you
Move on to anew
But I can’t get past

Hook:
How you made me feel
How you changed my life
How you made life real
And made me your wife

Chorus:
And I would never let you go if I was able to
I’d have never let you go you made my dreams come true

Hook:
How you made me feel
How you changed my life
How you made life real
And made me your wife

Chorus:
And I would never let you go if I was able to
I’d have never let you go you made my dreams come true

Chorus:
And I would never let you go if I was able to
I’d have never let you go you made my dreams come true
Track Name: To My Daughter Naporshyaa
Verse 1:
You caught me on the tail end of misfortune
You caught me while something ran from my eye
You caught me on the tail end of a breakup
You caught me while things were not looking bright
You caught me on the tail end of a nightmare
Where nothing panned out quite as I planned
You caught me on the tail end of a crazy asshole of a man

Hook:
So if something didn’t seem right
It’s probably cause nothing was

Chorus 1:
You caught me right before I ripped my eyes out
You caught me right before I laid to rest
You caught me right before I traveled down south
And I patted you right here on the head
It’s gonna be alright
Yeah and it’s gonna be okay
I am here for you now
So you don’t need to worry ‘bout a thing

Verse 2:
You caught me on the tail end of I’m finished
You caught me when I just wanted to die
You caught me on the tail end of your mother
You caught me while nothing was right in life
You caught me on the tail end of whatever
And I wanted to give up I had no plan
You caught me on the tail end of planning to say goodbye and just be gone

Hook:
So if something wasn’t right
It’s prolly cause nothing was

Chorus 2:
You caught me right before I pulled my hair out
You caught me right before I said fuck it
You caught me right before I forever shut my mouth
And I patted you right here on the head
It’s gonna be alright
Yeah and it’s gonna be okay
Cause I am here for you now
So you don’t need to worry ‘bout a thing
Track Name: I'm Not Here
Verse 1:
Why is it in every single day of my life
There’s always gotta be so much strife yay!

Hook:
I lack rights I guess that means I’m half a man, right?
A second a second-class citizen

Chorus:
I I am not here to be your puppet
And no no I’m not here to be your game
And no I’m not I’m not here to be your punching bag oh
Even though I’m I’m treated like I am

Verse 2:
Why is it in every single straight person
Does there always lay a bigot or a moron

Hook:
I lack rights I guess that means I’m half a man, right?
A second a second-class citizen

Chorus:
I I am not here to be your puppet
And no no I’m not here to be your game
And no I’m not I’m not here to be your punching bag oh
Even though I’m I’m treated like I am
Track Name: Give 'em Hope (Explicit)
Verse 1:
My dad was abusive
My mother turned a blind eye
She knew I was hurting
But she didn’t take a stand by my side
I wish I knew how my life
Was gonna end up then
If I could travel back in time
I’d tell myself “self you’ll be fine”

Hook 1:
I’d give em hope
I’d make him smile
I’d keep him company
Just for a little awhile
I’d mend his wounds and I’d free his soul
Yo I’d call his dad A fuckin’ fat asshole
Yo I’d hit em back I’d break his fuckin’ nose
Cause nobody fucks with me no more
I’d cut em down just like he did me
I wouldn’t offer the man no fuckin’ sympathy

Chorus 1:
And now my life’s better
And now that doesn’t matter
Cause I’m no longer battered
And my daughter don’t get hit I wont let her

Verse 2:
My boyfriend was abusive
And he didn’t treat me right
He was such a druggie
He didn’t know how to prioritize
I barely ever seen him
And when I did all we did was fight
If I could erase what I felt
I’d have realized that I’d be fine

Hook 2:
I’d give em hope
I’d make him smile
I’d keep him company
Just for a little awhile
Yo I’d mend his wounds and I’d free his soul
I’d call his fuckin’ man A pill-poppin’ ho
Yo I’d hit em back I’d break that fuckers nose
Cause nobody fucks with me no more
Yo I’d cut em down just like he did me
I wouldn’t offer the fuck no fuckin’ sympathy

Chorus 2:
And now my life’s better
And now that doesn’t matter
Cause I’m no longer battered
My boyfriends don’t get hit ever

Chorus 1:
And now my life’s better
And now that doesn’t matter
Cause I’m no longer battered
My daughter don’t get hit I wont let her

Chorus 2:
And now my life’s better
And now that doesn’t matter
Cause I’m no longer battered
My boyfriends don’t get hit ever
Track Name: Give 'em Hope (Clean)
Verse 1:
My dad was abusive
My mother turned a blind eye
She knew I was hurting
But she didn’t take a stand by my side
I wish I knew how my life
Was gonna end up then
If I could travel back in time
I’d tell myself “self you’ll be fine”

Hook 1:
I’d give em hope
I’d make him smile
I’d keep him company
Just for a little awhile
I’d mend his wounds and I’d free his soul
Yo I’d call his dad A fuckin’ fat asshole
Yo I’d hit em back I’d break his fuckin’ nose
Cause nobody fucks with me no more
I’d cut em down just like he did me
I wouldn’t offer the man no fuckin’ sympathy

Chorus 1:
And now my life’s better
And now that doesn’t matter
Cause I’m no longer battered
And my daughter don’t get hit I wont let her

Verse 2:
My boyfriend was abusive
And he didn’t treat me right
He was such a druggie
He didn’t know how to prioritize
I barely ever seen him
And when I did all we did was fight
If I could erase what I felt
I’d have realized that I’d be fine

Hook 2:
I’d give em hope
I’d make him smile
I’d keep him company
Just for a little awhile
Yo I’d mend his wounds and I’d free his soul
I’d call his fuckin’ man A pill-poppin’ ho
Yo I’d hit em back I’d break that fuckers nose
Cause nobody fucks with me no more
Yo I’d cut em down just like he did me
I wouldn’t offer the fuck no fuckin’ sympathy

Chorus 2:
And now my life’s better
And now that doesn’t matter
Cause I’m no longer battered
My boyfriends don’t get hit ever

Chorus 1:
And now my life’s better
And now that doesn’t matter
Cause I’m no longer battered
My daughter don’t get hit I wont let her

Chorus 2:
And now my life’s better
And now that doesn’t matter
Cause I’m no longer battered
My boyfriends don’t get hit ever
Track Name: Healed
Verse 1:
A year and a half I’ve been here in your past
Being Brad ya know the one from which you ran
Wish you’d think about me in a light that’s pleasing
But you don’t cause you can’t all you can do is hate
And I say

Hook:
You said that you’d love me forever
But now you hate me altogether

Chorus:
I say it’s okay cause one day I’ll be healed
And I say it’s okay cause one day I’ll be healed

Verse 2:
A life together erased forever
Or a great big mistake but a life that I treasured

Chorus:
I say it’s okay cause one day I’ll be healed
And I say it’s okay cause one day I’ll be healed

Bridge:
It’s still so hard to believe that you’re gone
I see your expressions every day in my thoughts
I see you crystal-clear as if you were still here
and that’s just a yearning that fills me with fear

Chorus:
I say it’s okay cause one day I’ll be healed
And I say it’s okay cause one day I’ll be healed

Chorus:
I say it’s okay cause one day I’ll be healed
And I say it’s okay cause one day I’ll be healed
Track Name: Pill After Pill
Verse 1:
Pill after pill there was no change still
So they dispensed me to death with all of these pills
all that was left was my body
A body immune to all senses

Chorus:
You'll see me at times one hand on the gun
But too numb to take a shot fuck my life
You'll see me at times one hand on the gun
But the afterlife’s on my mind

Verse 2:
I can’t believe this is happening to me
"I don't think that I am supposed to be here"
Are the only words that are left here to string
I feel my hand reaching for a trigger that’s near

Chorus:
You'll see me at times one hand on the gun
But too numb to take a shot fuck my life
You'll see me at times one hand on the gun
But the afterlife’s on my mind

Bridge:
No no no no no no no no-ho no no no no no no...
Pill after pill
Still I am here the same

Chorus:
You'll see me at times one hand on the gun
But too numb to take a shot fuck my life
You'll see me at times one hand on the gun
But the afterlife’s on my mind

Chorus:
You'll see me at times one hand on the gun
But too numb to take a shot fuck my life
You'll see me at times one hand on the gun
But the afterlife’s on my mind
Track Name: Bradley Voorhees (Featuring Nick Lopez) - Pretty Hard (Nick Lopez Version)
Verse 1:
I’d like to say that I hate you, but I don’t
I’d like to say I don’t miss you, but I do
I think it’s clear you still captivate me
I’d like to say I’m over you, but I’m not

Hook:
Want to move beyond
The love in you I never had

Chorus:
It’s getting pretty hard to hold you
It’s getting pretty hard to fake you
I wish that I could just forget you
I wish that I had never met you

Verse 2:
I wanna go but I’m stuck here, with you on my mind
forgetting you is one of my fears, what the fuck
I have to think what you put me through, all that hell
I have to say I saw through you, you’re such a dick

Hook:
Want to move beyond
The love in you I never had

Chorus:
It’s getting pretty hard to hold you
It’s getting pretty hard to fake you
I wish that I could just forget you
I wish that I had never met you

and I'd like to say that you didn't get what you wanted
but we both know that's a lie
and it's getting pretty hard to push these thoughts aside
you tied my hands to my back, and threw me on the tracks
but my love for you never died

It’s getting pretty hard to hold you (it's getting pretty, it's getting pretty hard)
It’s getting pretty hard to fake you (to fake you, to fake you)
oh, oh, oh
I wish that I could just forget you (forget you, forget you)
I wish that I had never met you
Track Name: Pretty Hard (Bradley Voorhees Version)
Verse 1:
I’d like to say that I hate you, but I don’t
I’d like to say I don’t miss you, but I do
I think it’s clear you still captivate me, yes you do
I’d like to say I’m over you, but I’m not

Hook:
Want to move beyond the love in you I never had and

Chorus:
It’s getting pretty hard to hold you
It’s getting pretty hard to fake you
I wish that I could just forget you
I wish that I had never met you

Verse 2:
I wanna go but I’m stuck here, with you on my mind
forgetting you is one of my fears, what the fuck
I have to think what you put me through, all that hell
I have to say that I saw through you, you’re such a dick

Hook:
Want to move beyond the love in you I never had and

Chorus:
It’s getting pretty hard to hold you
It’s getting pretty hard to fake you
I wish that I could just forget you
I wish that I had never met you
Track Name: Richards Lexxi
Verse 1:
Lexxi was the girl that all the girls wanted to be
Lexxi had ‘em beggin for more and more ecstasy
All the girls booed while all the boys drooled over Lexxi
But she was nobodies fool she was just so damn cute that Lexxi

Chorus:
Lexxi, Lexxi
Sexy Lexxi

Verse 2:
Richard was the boy that everybody wanted to do
Richard was the guy who everybody wanted to screw
All the world cheered when Richard appeared at his hottness
He was a hottie like triple cock tease that Richard

Chorus:
Lexxi, Lexxi
Sexy Lexxi
Track Name: Left Over
Verse 1:
Hey you stop right there
It’s been too long since you came here
So what we broke up and it is I who is the mess
I’ma fuck you up just because I can

Chorus:
And you left over and over and over and over and over and over again
You came back over and over and over and over and over and over again
I don’t know how I could long to be with someone like you still after what you put me through
I don’t know what’s gotten into me you’re all on top of me I’d just like to say fuck you

Verse 2:
Well this really sucks
I don’t seem to have any luck
I’m tormented lays dormant inside
Waiting to come out and ruin my life

Chorus:
And you left over and over and over and over and over and over again
You came back over and over and over and over and over and over again
I don’t know how I could long to be with someone like you still after what you put me through
I don’t know what’s gotten into me you’re all on top of me I’d just like to say fuck you
Track Name: Vacancy
Verse 1:
You have the power to make me smile
Can’t believe it was that easy
You have the power to make me laugh
How can I ever form the words to say

Chorus:
Thank you for coincidences
Thank you for participation
Fuck you to emancipation
I deserve congratulations
God bless you for listening
Lord help you for disagreeing
Hello looks can be deceiving
Back up this is a vacancy

Verse 2:
You’ve turned my nights into enjoyable times
Can’t believe the power you have inside
Now my conscience actually works sometimes
Cause you’ve have shown me the wrong from the right

Chorus:
Thank you for coincidences
Thank you for participation
Fuck you to emancipation
I deserve congratulations
God bless you for listening
Lord help you for disagreeing
Hello looks can be deceiving
Back up this is a vacancy
Track Name: Eff You
EFF YOU
Verse 1:
Hey, I feel like I enjoyed our fights
K I’m lying there but it’s nice to be polite

Chorus:
Eff you
You don’t know me
Eff you
You don’t own me
Eff you
You don’t scare me
Eff you
You wont break me
Eff you
You don’t know me
Eff you
You don’t own me
Eff you
You don’t scare me
Eff you
You wont break me

Verse 2:
Wait you never cared so why’m I explaining myself to you
Say you never cared 'bout me and that’s the gods honest truth

Chorus:
Eff you
You don’t know me
Eff you
You don’t own me
Eff you
You don’t scare me
Eff you
You wont break me
Eff you
You don’t know me
Eff you
You don’t own me
Eff you
You don’t scare me
Eff you
You wont break me