Still Living But Only Through Retrospect

by Bradley Voorhees

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This is gay singer/songwriter Bradley Voorhees' 50th album since the year 2005 -Averaging 6 albums a year.

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released July 19, 2013

All tracks written, and recorded, mixed, and mastered by Bradley Voorhees unless otherwise noted (on song page, or digi-lyric booklet)

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Track Name: It'll Be Okay
Verse 1:
Why did you leave
Why did you go
Why didn’t you seek out
Someone who knows

Hook 2:
How tough it can be
When you feel so alone
And when things look so bleak
You just gotta know

Chorus:
Always keep your head up
You have got to stay strong
It’ll be okay
And when the walls close in around you
You’ve got to remember
It’ll be okay
And to never ever give up
Even when you want to
It’ll be okay
And when you feel like you are cornered
You’ve got to brace yourself
It’ll be okay

Verse 2:
Just look at me
I too was alone
But I hung in there
And let myself know

Hook 2:
How good life could be
If you don’t look around
Or hear people speak
While they’re putting you down

Chorus:
Always keep your head up
You have got to stay strong
It’ll be okay
And when the walls close in around you
You’ve got to remember
It’ll be okay
And to never ever give up
Even when you want to
It’ll be okay
And when you feel like you are cornered
You’ve got to brace yourself
It’ll be okay

Chorus:
Always keep your head up
You have got to stay strong
It’ll be okay
And when the walls close in around you
You’ve got to remember
It’ll be okay
And to never ever give up
Even when you want to
It’ll be okay
And when you feel like you are cornered
You’ve got to brace yourself
It’ll be okay

Chorus:
Always keep your head up
You have got to stay strong
It’ll be okay
And when the walls close in around you
You’ve got to remember
It’ll be okay
And to never ever give up
Even when you want to
It’ll be okay
And when you feel like you are cornered
You’ve got to brace yourself
It’ll be okay
Track Name: Made it Out Alive
Verse 1:
You’re up to no good again
Sometimes it isn’t fair
That I have to deal with this
Even though you just don’t care
I might sit my life away
But I always share
So everybody knows
Because I am so bare

Chorus:
We
You and I
We were day and night
We’d fight all the time
And me
Well I’m just surprised
All them times I cried
But we got through all them fights
And made it out alive

Verse 2:
You still live your life the same
But it never worked for me
And that’s why we broke up
Cause we was never meant to be
And you never liked the way
I chose to live my life each day
We were so north and south
And that’s why I’m alone today

Chorus:
We
You and I
We were day and night
We’d fight all the time
And me
Well I’m just surprised
All them times I cried
But we got through all them fights
And made it out alive

Chorus:
We
You and I
We were day and night
We’d fight all the time
And me
Well I’m just surprised
All them times I cried
But we got through all them fights
And made it out alive

End:
We made it out alive
We made it out alive
Track Name: Our Every Little Kiss
Intro:
You were the first love I ever had
I’m so never gonna forget you lover
Or our every little kiss

Verse 1:
Boy you knew I loved you
You were my everything
I couldn’t help but need you
I never wanted you to go away

Hook:
Why did everything I wanted so bad leave me

Chorus:
Knowing that you’re out there
But it isn’t me who you’re with
I can’t keep going on like this
Picturing our every little kiss
I hate that we’re exboyfriends
You’re everything that I miss
How’m I supposed to move on
Remembering our every little kiss

Verse 2:
Boy are you still out there
All these years they seem like days
I think that my life stopped
The day you went away

Hook:
Why did everything I wanted so bad leave me

Chorus:
Knowing that you’re out there
But it isn’t me who you’re with
I can’t keep going on like this
Picturing our every little kiss
I hate that we’re exboyfriends
You’re everything that I miss
How’m I supposed to move on
Remembering our every little kiss

Bridge:
I’ll never let you go not ever
And I’ll hold onto you forever

Chorus:
Knowing that you’re out there
But it isn’t me who you’re with
I can’t keep going on like this
Picturing our every little kiss
I hate that we’re exboyfriends
You’re everything that I miss
How’m I supposed to move on
Remembering our every little kiss

Chorus:
Knowing that you’re out there
But it isn’t me who you’re with
I can’t keep going on like this
Picturing our every little kiss
I hate that we’re exboyfriends
You’re everything that I miss
How’m I supposed to move on
Remembering our every little kiss
Track Name: I Fucking Hate You Because I Still Love You
Intro:
I shouldn’t have let you go
I’m glad I let you go

Verse 1:
People have always walked in and out of my life
And I never thought twice
But losing you was the hardest time I wont lie
For you I still cry

Hook:
My time with you in this life is over now and forever

Chorus:
I fucking hate you because I still love you
I can’t let you go
I fucking hate you because I still love you
Yo I should have known
That you didn’t care
That you would leave
And I would stay here
Forever just me
I fucking hate you because I still love you

Verse 2:
Before I met you I was doing my own thing
And then there was you
I didn’t know loving you’d bring me so much pain
Man I was a fool

Hook:
Cause it’s over now and it’s been over forever why can’t I accept that

Chorus:
I fucking hate you because I still love you
I can’t let you go
I fucking hate you because I still love you
Yo I should have known
That you didn’t care
That you would leave
And I would stay here
Forever just me
I fucking hate you because I still love you

Bridge:
I shouldn’t have let you go
I’m glad I let you go

End:
I fucking hate you because I still love you
I fucking hate you because I still love you
I fucking hate you because I still love you
I fucking hate you because I still love you
Track Name: Now You're All Alone
Verse 1:
Your house of lies
You live a lonely life
But you try to hide
When you cry
I know your disguise
I’ve seen you dwell
In your lonely nights
You made your hell
And you turned out the lights

Chorus:
I used to love you
I tried my best to protect you
But you wouldn’t have any part of it
And now you’re all alone

Verse 2:
You play your games
stay the same
And then we will see
If you’re happy
Once everybody’s gone

Chorus:
I used to love you
I tried my best to protect you
But you wouldn’t have any part of it
And now you’re all alone

Chorus:
I used to love you
I tried my best to protect you
But you wouldn’t have any part of it
And now you’re all alone

Chorus:
I used to love you
I tried my best to protect you
But you wouldn’t have any part of it
And now you’re all alone

Chorus:
I used to love you
I tried my best to protect you
But you wouldn’t have any part of it
And now you’re all alone
Track Name: Every Moment
Verse 1:
Why did everything with you fall apart
time and time again when I’ve loved you right from the start

Hook:
Every moment without you is another moment wasted
Every moment I live without you is another moment wasted

Chorus:
Yeah how bout no more broken hearts
Hey how bout cherishing these moments
and how how bout returning all the love
yeah before your moments gone
before your moments gone

Verse 2:
My life with you just didn’t work out
Though I gave my all still it just wasn’t enough

Hook:
Every moment without you is another moment wasted
Every moment I live without you is another moment wasted

Chorus:
Yeah how bout no more broken hearts
Hey how bout cherishing these moments
and how how bout returning all the love
yeah before your moments gone

Bridge:
How did this thing manifest
how did this mess get so big
And how will I conquer this
How’d it get to be like this after just one moment

Chorus:
Yeah how bout no more broken hearts
Hey how bout cherishing these moments
and how how bout returning all the love
yeah before your moments gone
before your moments gone
Track Name: The Outcome of Telling Father I'm Gay
Verse 1:
There’s nothing left for you
Even though I tried
I held onto you
For more than half my life
All of the things you said
Wont miss the things you did
It’s all locked up in my head
Even though I’m over it

Hook:
And I felt so lonely all the time
When I told you that day in the park
Under the tree that I was gay
And why when I when I needed
You the most did you turn away

Chorus:
Cause I’m gay
So get over it
Or why don’t you sit
With me under the tree
Cause I’m gay
And it’s never gonna change
So love me for me or go away

Verse 2:
We were never close
Even though we tried
But you said you’d love me forever
I guess that means you lied
I wonder where we’d be
If you still talked to me
I’ll never forget you sir
But I wont ever cry

Hook:
And I felt so lonely all the time
When I told you that day in the park
Under the tree that I was gay
And why when I when I needed
You the most did you turn away

Chorus:
Cause I’m gay
So get over it
Or why don’t you sit
With me under the tree
Cause I’m gay
And it’s never gonna change
So love me for me or go away

Chorus:
Cause I’m gay
So get over it
Or why don’t you sit
With me under the tree
Cause I’m gay
And it’s never gonna change
So love me for me or go away

Chorus:
Cause I’m gay
So get over it
Or why don’t you sit
With me under the tree
Cause I’m gay
And it’s never gonna change
So love me for me or go away
Track Name: Fatal Attraction (Give 'em Hope 4)
Verse 1:
I wish I could hold you in my arms
I live for you
When I’m weak you make me strong
No you don’t know it
Oh how I want you
forever in my life
Listen to me I want you

Chorus:
I’m what you make me
It’s a fatal attraction

Verse 2:
My life is wrapped around your finger
only you can make me feel this way
Please don’t hurt me no more
Everything you do affects me
I really can’t explain it

Chorus:
I’m what you make me
It’s a fatal attraction

Bridge:
I wish I had you in my life
‘stead of these playas givin’ bad advice
sayin’ you ain’t no good, you’re not nice
but I know they’re wrong ‘cause I like who I like
Yo I sing this song to you my friend
I wish we could be more than that
I’ll wait ‘till the day comes
then I’ll have you in my arms
Yo people say that you’ll hurt me
But I just want you to be with me
I need your love
I need your love

Chorus:
I’m what you make me
It’s a fatal attraction

Verse 3:
Everything you do
It hurts me to see you play around
Even though your not mine
I want you
I’d do anything for you
I love you
You don’t want to see it

Chorus:
I’m what you make me
It’s a fatal attraction

The End:
Give ‘em hope
some people just weren’t meant to be
Give ‘em hope
I know it hurts and it fucking stings
Give ‘em hope
Goes to show that you can move on
Give ‘em hope
You think you can’t it’s an illusion
Give ‘em hope
I was so obsessed by myself
Give ‘em hope
I couldn’t think of anything else
Give ‘em hope
Here it is a few years later
Give ‘em hope
I don’t ever think of that player
Track Name: Here & There
Verse 1:
I still live every day the same
Almost like you didn’t even mean a thing
Now that you’re gone I say nothing else has changed
I still live like I did yesterday

Hook:
It’s like you aren’t here
like you were never there
like when you were still here
even then you just weren’t there
It’s like you aren’t here
like you were never there
like when you were still here
even then you just weren’t there

Chorus:
I know that you’re no longer near
But it doesn’t mean I don’t still feel you here

Verse 2:
I’m still here and I haven’t changed
Found a love who wanted me to stay the same
I’d be alone forever that’s what you would say
But my lover loves me and he’s here to stay

Hook:
It’s like you aren’t here
like you were never there
like when you were still here
even then you just weren’t there
It’s like you aren’t here
like you were never there
like when you were still here
even then you just weren’t there

Chorus:
I know that you’re no longer near
But it doesn’t mean I don’t still feel you here

Bridge:
I wanna know what book you got all your lines from
I wanna know where you claim to have got your wisdom

Chorus:
I know that you’re no longer near
But it doesn’t mean I don’t still feel you here

Chorus:
I know that you’re no longer near
But it doesn’t mean I don’t still feel you here
Track Name: Slip Away
Intro:
I wish you could see your potential
See you the way I do
You know hot talented
Beautiful in and out

Verse 1:
I’ve seen the way he looks I’ve seen the way he acts
Seeing him look like that it just reminds me of my past

Hook 1:
Like my boyfriend where was he all the time
And where’d he disappear to night after night

Chorus:
He was running
Hiding
And rotting away
He had me worried
He was warning me
To stay out of his way
I watched him slip away

Verse 2:
I see the way you look because of how he acts
Seeing you look like that it just reminds me of my past

Hook 2:
Like myself back then when I’d be home with the kids
and I’d sit and think “Man, look at all that he missed”

Chorus:
While he was running
Hiding
And rotting away
He had me worried
He was warning me
To stay out of his way
I watched him slip away

Bridge:
I need you to carefully just step back from the edge
It’s never too late to get back
I need you to realize that at home you are a dad
And the kids are always lonely it really makes them sad

Chorus:
To see you just running
Hiding
And rotting away
He had me worried
He was warning me
To stay out of his way
I watched him slip away

Chorus:
Running
Hiding
And rotting away
He had me worried
He was warning me
To stay out of his way
I watched him slip away
Track Name: Bradley Voorhees (Featuring Joshua P. Kennedy) - Feel it Too (Part 2)
Verse 1:
I would always call you when I was running late
And I never expected from you the same thing
I didn’t believe you when you’d say you loved me
And I guess the proof in that is that I’m still alone today

Chorus:
One day I thought that you’d call me sweetheart
I felt that one day you’d appreciate my art
I had faith at one point you’d know how I feel
Because you my dear would feel it too

Verse 2:
I always dreamed about you every single night
Even though you never thought about me when you were awake
I’ll admit maybe I tried too hard to make you love me
And I guess the proof in that is that you’re with him today

Chorus:
One day I thought that you’d call me sweetheart
I felt that one day you’d appreciate my art
I had faith at one point you’d know how I feel
Because you my dear would feel it too

Bridge:
I know now that I was wrong
You never did feel it too

Chorus:
One day I thought that you’d call me sweetheart
I felt that one day you’d appreciate my art
I had faith at one point you’d know how I feel
Because you my dear would feel it too